My work explores the fragile relationship between the body and consciousness, questioning what remains when their connection is lost. In my series How I Don’t Feel, I investigate derealization—a state where the body becomes distant, and sensation fades. This project stems from my personal experience of a depersonalization episode, when, after a series of psychologically traumatic events, I lost connection with my body. No pain, no sexual sensation, no fatigue, no satisfaction.
The initial horror of this disconnection gradually shifted into a deep curiosity about the nature of this state. I began to ask myself: what becomes a point of reference in the absence of feeling?

Using different mediums, I visualize this detachment through fragmented forms and dissolving figures. The layering technique reflects the instability of self-awareness, where identity shifts and disappears, mirroring the experience of losing one’s physical presence. My work captures an existential crisis—what does it mean to exist without feeling the body? I ask: Do I exist if I cannot feel myself? If so, what role does my body play without connection to the mind?

These questions drive my artistic process, pushing me to examine absence, perception, and selfhood. How I Don’t Feel invites viewers into this liminal space, opening a dialogue about the boundaries of reality and personal existence.